It seems like you were traumatized by the experience with your T and the phone calls...You mentioned that you don't remember much about your childhood. I can relate so much to that...I didn't remember a lot about my childhood until I separated from my ex-husband and then experienced a very triggering event. Then, it became like flashes of a slideshow of memories that came flooding in.

I can understand wanting to stop running around in circles about it and getting nowhere.....yet still having the frustration of not knowing how to fix it.....Ugh.