One of the things I struggle most with is what other people think about me and my situation. I get really scared that people don't think I've been through enough to constitute as abuse or that my feelings aren't justified because compared to other survivors, my situation is pretty mild. I absolutely hate when someone says "that's not bad enough" because if it wasn't bad enough, then I wouldn't have these paranoid feelings of fear and low self esteem to the degree that I do. My therapist says I should stop worrying about what others think because every case is unique and nobody has the right to judge and though I know she's right, worrying about what people think has always been a second nature for me. I wish I could just turn off a switch to make me stop caring. And I got upset a few days ago when I was chatting with someone on here and they were being judgmental about "unhappy" people. But I know that people are always going to be judgmental no matter where they are so I'm trying hard not to let this get to me because I don't want to leave this site so soon.
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