My T said last week that being honest with my feelings was the only way I was going to start to feel better. We all have parts that aren't "nice" and parts that are "nice". We act and say things for a reason. Therapy is a place to say feelings and thoughts whether they are nice or not. It doesn't mean YOU are bad or not nice. Can you try to accept whatever part is saying "I feel bad" and just try to be curious about it? This is a little IFS therapy. If it doesn't help, please ignore me.