Skysblue,

So you don't really remember you childhood, wow, not very eventfull huh? Do you even remember having any closeness with either parent? I remember bits and pieces but not too much

Everyone has some fear of abandonment or even rejection. Ofcourse you didn't really say what you T said that upset you and made you mad here. Oh, I went on and on about what happened in another thread: "Visualize This"

Also it is not unusual to not really make a connection with a therapist. If you feel like your not making progress than maybe you might want to find a different therapist. After all they are just people you know. We cannot pick our parents and we cannot change our past but we can change our therapists.The truth is is that I really do love my T. We're going through a rough patch now and she is being the most patient and compassionate person I could ever work this stuff through. She's great. The problem is me.

It is almost like finding a good hair dresser or even a teacher. There are crappy hair dressers and crappy teachers too. If you go to a hair dresser and she cuts your hair crappy all the time do you keep going back? And if you took up say, piano lessons and the teacher was crappy and had hurtful comments would you continue going?
It is the same with therapists, some are much better than others.I agree - if a T doesn't seem like a good fit, then we should look for another.

Open Eyes