I know you want to be good, and be seen to be good so things stay safe and T will stay there and there won't be any risk of her going ....

but I think that part of you that feels deeply flawed, that feels so very very hurt ... is also longing to be accepted and know it's ok for her to be revealed also

and if you keep aiming for what you think is the perfect client; she doesn't get to be exposed in the ways that are needed for her to know what it is to share, to be accepted and for someone to stick around

and the healing you want .... is covered up by these layers of protection (which we all have)

I know it's confusing