Do you need reassurance that your T will still be there?
that they aren't angry or upset with you?
that they won't hurt you?
that they won't leave?
that they care about you?
Are you able to ask them for reassurance of this kind and if so ... how do you ask, and how do you receive it? and, how long does the reassurance last for?
I'm not allowed to ask anymore

I'm meant to just know and trust in the answers instead