I have never needed that kind of reassurance from my t's. I've always been able to trust their dedication to helping me, their deep ability to be understanding and patient, and their care and devotion to my well-being.

There is a point when you do have to trust the process. Take that leap of faith. Sounds like that is what your t is trying to get you to do. After all, apparently no matter how many times he tries to reassure you, you still don't really believe him. Rather than asking for that reassurance, write down all the positives about your t. Write down what he has done for you. The proof is there. It is time to be able to reassure yourself by looking at the facts and the evidence. Use the evidence to counter your fears.