For the past several years I have had what counselors called body memories, in the past five days , my mind no longer allowed me to seperate the sensations from my mind, making it real and obvious something happened to me. I have been in intense physical pain for five days and I dont want to trigger so I wont say anymore than that, it has eased up today finally and now im just terrified. I started a journal that has way more detail than I thought I would ever possibly remember, I am taking it to counseling which I start on Wednesday. Thanks for listening, so scared and alone.