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I'm so sorry that your T is moving away. It's not easy to find a good one, and when you do, you want to keep him or her. My T is good too, but she's so frustrating right now. I guess because she won't let me be dependent and expect her to fix things for me, and she won't give me the answers.

Right now, anyway, she won't give me affirmations or counter the self-hate. I guess I'm supposed to do that myself too. I did have a therapist who countered the negative statements I made about myself, and I wasn't going to get any further with him because I just politely thanked him and pretended to agree, but inside I didn't believe him and kept on arguing against him.

I'd like to have a taste of independence, but I don't know that it's a good enough reason to leave my family. And I don't have the resources to leave even so. But part of what I'm looking for is what people think about my situation, and whether trying it on my own would be justifyable, and if so, how would I do that?
Rap