I have to go talk to T about being fired from my job. I am glad to have the opportunity to see her (she has been away for a few weeks) but I worry about her response. I did so much work in therapy and the 12-step groups I have been attending and I felt like it paid off by my being hired.
That was 2 months ago.
I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up. That was dumb.
I should know that work (jobs) never work out for me.
Maybe I actually even feel angry at her for letting me get my hopes up.
Maybe I just feel hurt and disappointed by the way I was treated at this company.
Heaven knows it was a highly-dispensable low-paying job, why should I be treated with respect?
I feel like I will be in and out of these positions my whole life. Just the way it goes for me.