it's ok beauflow.. I totally understand you and I'm ready for any opinion you guys have and I really appreciate your precious time of paying attention to me.

I think love for me is something you have to cherish for the rest of your life and you have to give your best shot in every little thing and every second you have. I know that what's happening to this relationship is not normal. I want to leave him and move on but at the back of my heart and my mind says that I still want to work things out. The sad truth here is we don't have therapist here to talk about relationships because it is strictly prohibited here. Honestly, my friends almost got tired of listening to my stories of fighting with him over and over again and sometimes I just keep it within me and figure out things by myself and pray. That's why I went to search to the net to seek help and opinion from people.