just cant trust people. a couple years ago i went to a training with two coworkers, also considered friends who said they would be there for me. the training was on suicide. it triggered me bad and i started to experience pychosis. the design on the carpet was moving, the walls closing in. i had a mini breakdown. we went out to dinner afterward and i guess i was demonstrating some bizarre behaviors. a while back another coworker, not so much a friend, while talking about another suicide training, brought up my breakdown at the past one, which means my "friends" told her what happened to me. i let it go. water under the bridge. then yesterday, i was walking past the bosses office and she waved me in while she was on the phone. she was talking to someone about a suicide training that was coming up. said she wanted to give me forewarning about it because she wanted me to go but she remembers what happened last time. which means my friends told my boss what happend too. i feel violated. i was so vulnerable back then and trusted them. its one thing to tell my boss, maybe that was necessary, but no real reason for it. but to tell this other person was just plain gossip. does it come down to we can only reveal our mental health struggles to our T? must we remain isolated an alone in the real world because normies cant tolerate and understand what we are experiencing? how come people cant have compassion for what we are going thru? right now i just think people suck.