i think the biggest thing..honestly it that it's affecting my work life allot, i'm kinda scared to go back to my t because he may have me take time off work again...finacially i can afford it however...if i take the time they can/will replace me..i might not have a job to go back to and if that happends...i know i'm not ready to look for another job, interview etc...i hate it..i hate my job but it's more bearable being absolutely miserable doing a horrible job then it is toget another job. It would be tough financially if i was not working at all...but more mentally when i am off work i spiral down even farther and imagine my husband hates me because i'm not working..i'm not sure if it's true or just me feeling that way. Another thing is if they put me back on meds i'll need time off because i just can't adjust while trying to be a caregiver at work, i don't have any patience or understanding left just anger and sadness...and it's really not fair to my clients. I just down know what to do.