(((((((((lastyearisblank))))))))))

I am so sorry to hear that you are not getting the support you need. I can really relate to how it feels to have a T that is too busy dealing with their own issues and feeling somewhat deserted. But please don't take this personally or that you are the problem. If your therapist was good at actually being a therapist she or he would have made sure to listen intently when you expressed those feelings. Because what that means is that you are feeling overwhelmed and need more support and to know that someone is really listening and making an effort to help you get even more support or appointments to give you a chance to express your real need.

Please make sure you find another therapist right away. No matter how bad you feel, you must make sure you understand that these feelings need attention and you need support. And don't blame yourself for someone elses inadequacies.

Lastyear, No matter how bad it gets IT WILL GET BETTER and YOU WILL GET THROUGH IT. Your not loving yourself right now, your lost, that is all, and that can MOST DEFINITELY CHANGE.

I talked about that myself with my therapist tonite during my appointment. I have been going through a rough spot and I get very hard on myself and even angry at myself for not somehow being stronger. But you have to know, YOU JUST HAVENT LEARNED HOW TO BE STRONGER YET. Your just human Lastyear, and your not going to have all the answers or lifeskills yet, your going to have to learn and it is going to take time. And that means that you need to find the right therapist that has the skills to really help you and they are out there and you can get help.

Remember those words, "up until now" keep those words with you all the time. Every time you feel low remember these words and how you CAN LEARN TO OVERCOME. Sometimes it can be very dark and so hard to see the light, but it doesn't mean it wont come, you have to believe it will. And eventually it actually will come because your going to LEARN HOW TO SEE IT AND LET IT GUIDE YOU. And that is why you have to keep looking and KNOW that someone is out there that can REALLY HELP YOU AND LISTEN. Your just really lost right now, but that doesn't mean you cant find your way, when you talk about SUI you are saying "I AM SO VERY LOST AND IT FEELS HOPELESS" but that doesn't mean it will stay that way. You are just expressing that you really need extra help and support.

We are here, we are listening and we understand and you have lots of warm hugs and support to let you know, KEEP ASKING FOR HELP, AS LONG AS YOU KEEP ASKING, YOU WILL GET IT. Dont be ashamed or afraid, if a therapist does not help you and listen FIND ONE THAT CAN. I promise you, they ARE out there.

I will also keep you in my prayers

Open Eyes