I've been working on changing my life around so that I can meet more people. I recently took a pay cut to get onto a day shift so that I can go out after work, if there is ever an opportunity. I worked afternoons for 11 years and you can't spend time with people or meet new people at with those kind of hours. Most people are at work when you get up, and asleep when you get home. So this has been a huge change.

Like I said, a big part of the reason was to meet people, but I've been so chicken, I haven't met anyone new and I've been on day shift for almost two months. I was talking to someone on a dating site (it's also for meeting friends, and that's what I'm looking for) and we exchanged a few emails and then sort of just stopped talking. I also have been interested in joining some type of club or activity group. But again, I'm scared.

That's what usually happens. I get scared. I think I'm fundamentally afraid of change, which seems funny, since I wish things were different. I'm not a naturally very social person, so it can actually get mentally exhausting trying to keep up with people on that site. And I'm even more worried that if I get too many people in my life I'll just want to hide under my bed and not come out.