I need to tell you all about Ousted. Ousted is at least one of two alternate personalities that emerged when a traumatic event brought up years of repressed memories of spiritual and sexual abuse and shame.
Ousted carries all my anger and shame so that I can remain functional. She doesn't trust Christians and believes that every red letter in the Bible excludes her. She believes she is predestined to be hated by God and weeps over wanting the spiritual intimacy and fellowship that will always keep her in isolate rejection. She is the product of blind trust.

She can be incredibly abrasive and I am afraid that if I make friends with you all she will get mad. Please know in advance I mean nobody here ill will