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Well... I have abandonment issues. Not sure exactly where they came from but I know, for me, they tie in strongly to trust issues. Wouldn't that follow?

It could have started by my mom not being emotionally available to me... or my dad saying to me "So you're leaving me..." ... or because he hardly ever visited me after he and my mom split up... or it could have been when my mom had to go to work after the split up... or even boys not calling me back or letting me know that we had "split up." (Ouch! This is getting painful.)

My husband used to walk out of the house when we'd have an argument and there were times when he'd be gone for days. I've noticed recently that I ask him where he's going when he goes out the front door. No... I'm not over it yet, but I'm aware that I'm working on it. With a bit of explanation on my part and a smidge of understanding on his part, we're dealing with it. He now tells me where he's going even if it's to the work shed and even if we haven't argued.

There have been recent incidents in my life that have tested that issue as well as my faith in someone and my faith in his love. So far, I've come through with flying colors, but that doesn't mean it will stay that way. There will be more testing with that particular issue.

I can't say that the therapy I received delt directly with that issue much at all... at least not in a conscious way. Maybe it was in the work that we did in making me realize that I was enough unto myself. Don't know that I bought into it completely because I have always felt that there was a part of me missing; a second half that made me search for a soul mate. (HA!) For a long time I thought I had been a twin and had lost "her" somewhere in my mom's pregnancy. My T suggested that it was the "me" that had been forced into emotional seclussion very early in my infanthood.

I hope I'm done because this is as far as I can go for now.

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