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Old Aug 09, 2011, 08:26 PM
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Originally Posted by Shayatanica View Post
And yet we meet again, hydrophobic!! Bwahaha :P

My OCD was a lot worse during my earlier teenage years, but as my bipolar has gotten progressively worse, it is almost barely worth mentioning other than the intrusive thoughts. I only say that because it was bordering on crippling when I was a few years younger.
For the most part, I'm apparently what you would call "abnormal" OCD. It's mainly based in obsessions. I count things obsessively & attempt to find patterns in random things, such as the time or a list or etc. A lot of my time is also spent constantly organizing & redoing things until they are done perfectly or neatly, but I've recently been able to get over the doomsday feeling I get when something isn't TOTALLY perfect.
Uhm, my only fatalistic compulsion was that if I didn't knock on wood after having a negative intrusive thought about a loved one, that it would happen to them. Perhaps it's also a mockery of my belief in the power of thoughts/suggestion. But that one didn't really last all that long.
Intrusive thoughts are the worst, though. And somewhere beyond 2 1/2 years ago, I developed trichatillomania. I'm not exactly sure how or why this ever happened to begin with, but I just started pulling my eyelashes out when I get stressed... That one is really hard to stop, as I barely realize I'm doing it while it's happening. It's almost trance like. And for some reason, before I do it, it's like I get this psychosomatic pain on the follicles of my eyelashes as if I have a stye. I suppose it's my mind's way of making sure I do it, even if I want to talk myself out of it. :/

Blah. I hope that helped some! You're definitely not alone
Ha, ha! So we do!

Wow. I do that all the time, the knock on wood thing. Only, it's the prayer thing I was talking about. I worry that once I get a thought, if I don't 'pray' for that to not happen, it will happen. It's really, really nice to know that I'm not the only person who has done something like that. I mean, I know I wasn't, but it's one thing to know another to see it.

Thanks!
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