thanks beauflow for being honest. I know that the best thing is to move on but I don't think I'm ready yet but i will do my very best to make myself busy and divert my attention as to avoid thinking about him. I really appreciate your advice though it really hurts. I have to be ready to accept your opinions because I might have been so blinded by what I felt for him. I'm honestly devastated but I'm hoping and praying to be ok soon.. thanks a lot..