T got me to imagine "her" in the room with us - hadn't managed to do that before. He was kind to her and she responded - I was really freaked out, didn't want T to see "her", didn't want "her" to have anything to do with T, but couldn't stop her. I am now scared that T and "she" will gang up on me - this even sounds weird to me, I can't make sense of it but am terrified of my session next week.

My head had been so much clearer and mood not so low, I am scared of going back there - is there a point when I should just accept me as I am and get on with life instead of prodding and probing too much?