I guess I'm too philosophical about what is 'honesty' anyways. I believe we have a ton of thoughts and emotions ensconced in our brains. Different ones bubble up at different moments. They each change in intensity depending on what's happening right now. For example, a certain emotion may be exaggerated simply because we haven't eaten all day or haven't gotten enough sleep or we just bumped our elbow or we had a fight with the neighbor.

So, because of some random stimulus that occurred just before we've expressed an emotion, we may give it more importance than it's due. And we may express it with an intensity that it doesn't deserve.

So, what is authenticity? Is it reflected by that particular emotion that appeared at that time or is it the emotion felt but not expressed or is it the ability to restrain ourselves when emotions feel too strong or is it allowing ourselves to emote no matter what the consequences?

Well, you see my dilemma - I am trapped in my mind with no exit seen.