Gee, I sure didn't expect so many replies. You are all so kind to reply.

Fuzzy-- thank you for your support, you've always been here for me-- for that I am very thankful.

Time0-- Yes, I do know that you understand.
Thank you so much for your support. To be able to have my own voice would be a dream- I'm thinking. To not have to feel bad about having an opinion.....
I see I really need some time away...... to strengthen my inner self that never had a chance to grow.

Kimmy- thanks for the "rallying" in my corner. I'm quite scared to make such a stand..... but I believe I will cease to exist if I don't do this. This last event with him has left me so squashed Thank you so much for your support.

ww--- change is very scary indeed..... and standing up for myself has been unthinkable!!! I hope I don't chicken out

Sabrina--- I'm sorry you have experienced similar-- it does hurt so much to be hurt by the one that is supposed to be the kindest. Yes, I have hung on to his words as if it was the only branch on the cliff side of which I dangle.

Sky-- thanks for the ideas, I will keep them in mind for sure. Thank you for your kind words.

brianm-- thanks, I hope it all works too.

myself-- thanks for the hugs.

bipolar bear--- thank you for your support. I hope you're right about my T. helping me to sort through some things--- it's so hard for me to trust anyone.

Thank you all, I really appreciate your support. I wish I could take you all with me to my session-- I'm already starting to get shaky--- -- (feels like I'm being such a chicken)

mandy