I did go to the ER and they took care of my cuts and then released me in the morning. I've been sleeping most of the time at home; I'm still feeling really depressed. And also really upset with myself for what I did. I think I know what is triggering my SI...my family is going through some rough times. My dad is going to jail for OWI and my brother is leaving to go into the army so I'm starting to feel abandoned. I know their situations have nothing to do with me but I can't help how I feel. I'm not in therapy right now because I've been struggling with alcohol use and the T I spoke to said she needs me to go to an alcohol treatment program first before I can see her. Ughh these last few weeks have been hell, I don't know how to get out of this feeling.