Well it is very much in a transitional state right now with school starting I guess...I think once it starts up we are going to have to have a set time (I don't think he knows yet what 2 evenings he will have open) so while I understand he is trying to work on this...he has no idea how much anxiety this is causing me...I need to bring it up to him next session (whenever the heck that will be...) I think I should also talk to him more about my wanting to run...my absolute fear is that I will make an impulsive decision to say "I don't want to do this anymore" and he won't contact me afterwards...and just let it be...it is after all my decision...I don't know Im just confused right now....I know that I don't want to leave him (I knew him before we started sessions) and I know that if I quit this I won't look for anyone else
Maybe I should unlace my running shoes at least...give it a shot and trust him when he says he won't leave and that this will be worth it...thank you so much for responding