I hear you about nobody listening. I get that a lot, I sometimes think I am the only one that hears me. You'd expect a professional who was trained to listen would listen. I know how that can be, sometimes they like to just get their patience in and get them out as soon as possible.

If I had something to complain about it would be my mother.

When my sister had her baby she was on the streets hooking and smoking crack. She's been doing that for a while. I mean I always suspected that was going on because when I was 13 I saw my mom standing on the side of the street half naked sticking her head in cars and then leaving with one of them. Her husband was waiting at home for her to return with the rock. It was a very bad time, and she is now at that point.

I found out from several different people at the hospital, a couple of my sisters friends, and some of their family, that my mom is hooking again. She even one time tried to beg money off of one of them.

How embarrassing.

Yeah that really pissed me off originally, then after the baby was born she came HIGH, and the first thing she asked was was the baby black. I told her off right in front of Dana's friends (apologized later), and told her to leave.

Who cares if he was black, white, Hispanic, or whatever....she should have asked if they were okay first.

Yesterday I went over there to do my laundry, and she asked me to hide her car keys outside so she couldn't leave for the night. I knew when I was hiding it it would have been a mistake because she would call in the middle of the night begging for them. I was right, she called very early in the morning crying saying she needed to go to court or she would go to jail. I told her where they were at, although I did not believe her because I wanted to go back to sleep.

Later I called Dana, who is in the hospital again, and told her about it, she laughed and said mom went to court the other day.

I knew she was bs'ing me! Like always.

I can't imagine lying to people like that, I wouldn't be able to take the constant guilt trips. But I guess the drugs make her numb to that.

Anyway, thanks for letting me ***** a little.