I understand what you mean about feeling too damaged to be cared for by a shrink. I used to feel the same way , with my 1st T--especially when she dumped me because she couldn't "handle" me. GeesH! I felt horrible for SO long. But you know what?It turns out that the problem was with HER-- it was her inadequacy, not MINE. I can see that now (3 years later!)
I'm so sorry you're hurting so much.