Thanks everyone....

It's ironic how I have other friendships that seem much healthier, but I don't care for them as much as I do for her. We have so many of the same interests - make jewelry together, paint together, watch the same shows, shop at the same stores....and she's very caring and generous.

But the negatives are so so so strong as well. I feel so sad at the idea of losing her friendship as a result of becoming healthier. I really hope that our relationship will be one that can be salvaged by setting boundaries and having clear expectations. I am not sure she will be willing or able....but I do know that it's something I want to work towards....although am scared to.

I also find myself feeling angry at myself for feeling "scared" and walking on eggshells. She is a FRIEND. Someone I CHOOSE to have in my life. It's just so wrong.