Hi guys

I have a serious question I would like to ask and I would appreciate some feedback on this subject. Some of you would already know me from my previous threads on here and I would just like to thank you for all the replies. The question I am going to ask is a bit more personal this time and I would like some honest answers because I guess I am scared.

When I was younger I was diagnosed with Autism, ADHD and OCD. Apart from my family only two people have known about this (Jessica and Rachel) as I don't feel comfortable telling people I have it because I am basically worried they are going to look at me differently. When I was in the second grade one of my teachers told me I could write at a sixth grade level and later I was told at TAFE I had an abnormally high IQ after doing an IQ test. I kept it hidden from them though because I didn’t want any special treatment and I wanted to prove that I could do everything myself.

I am thinking about telling this to Mandy soon but I am worried if she finds out she might not like me anymore. She is a very kind and caring woman and I’ve already told her about Jessica and Rachel passing away, my past addictions to alcohol and cocaine and the fact I’ve only had sex once with a woman I didn’t know when I was drunk and can’t remember it and she has been very understanding throughout all of it. I trust her and I want to be completely honest with her because I think I am in love with her. I know it’s early but we’ve spent so much time together and she is amazing.

Should I tell her? Take this for example, if your boyfriend or girlfriend who you liked told you they had those problems would it change the way you felt about them or would you still like them? This is probably my biggest secret and it would kill me if she broke up with me because of it. My life has just been so messed up this is the first time I’ve really been happy in a long time. Mandy means the world to me and I think I made a good decision asking her to move in with me.