Geese that's the absolute truth, I always worry about all possible outcomes it's why I feel so overwhelmed and when I'm overwhelmed I just shut down kinda like my body just quits and I have to sleep. My husband never understands how whenever there is so much going on or we have a ton to do I just take a nap. Today I feel 1% better it's not much really but it's a little bit and I think I can start to make a decision. Here is my plan , I'm going to schedule an appointment with my T , I'm going to try to give away as many shifts as possible between now and the end of the month, if I can't get rid of enough I will go to the doctor tomorrow and ask for a note to take some days off while I either start my meds again or until I can see my T. September I start school and I'd like to be able to brush my hair, take a bath, get out of bed you know somewhat function.....and instead of working 12-13 hour shifts 5 days a week I can go back down to 3 hour shifts which I think is going to help out tremendously. I feel better because I have a plan. So here's hopping it works