Thanks for those words Lynn.

Im just at the end of the road, no matter where I go or what I do, Ill always be judged on past mistakes. The thing is I never used to care, Im used to relying on my myself and I have done most of my life, it just seems that when I think things are going well in a heartbeat its all flipped around and Im back where I started. Just seems easier to stop feeling as feeling just seem to bring hurt and I just dont want to hurt anymore, my life has just been one kind of battle or another, and i just cant feel like this anymore, i just want to lock it all away and be someone new, be a machine, something that cant feel, just function. Feelings cause so much damage, adn scar us in ways that no knife ever could.