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Originally Posted by lynn P.
Thanks for the reply Richardrahl - I wasn't sure from your 1st post if you're having suicidal ideation or just giving up on people and trying to get along with them? Would moving someplace different give you a fresh start kind of feeling? I know its hard to shed a bad reputation with family and friends - all a person can do is keep on the right road and not care what people think...your actions will speak more than your past.
I know when we let ourselves feel emotions, we run the risk of being hurt - I've been very hurt and betrayed myself. At 1st I was devastated and then I thought, I'm not going to let that person ruin me and I refused to let it be on me. If we don't allow ourselves to feel, then we end up being cold and missing out on the good people/nice experiences.
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yet again thanks for getting back to me. Im not suicidal just sad and disappointed I guess, I am sorry if i caused any unnecessary worry.
I guess you could say Im living my fresh start, but it just feels like vicious circle I go around and around, ending up in the same situations over and over again, always expecting a different outcome only to see it all end the same way everytime. The common problem in all of these situations is me, when ever Im faced with a situation that involves emotion its like I just cant work properly, Im not really sure how to explain it; its like Im not sure how to feel and I get it wrong. My actions speak loud, Ive made a lot of changes most for the better, at least in a professional capacity, but I find people never focus on the good things, its the bad that sticks. Do I expect too much or am I just broken?? I dont really know. Are there any good people anymore, is there really anybody or anything worth feeling for? again I dont really know, all I know is with everyday that passes I find less and less to care about.