((((((Richardrahl)))))))

It sounds like depression talking. Your right, life is hard and we cannot depend on others for our happiness and sense of security in life. It is a hard lesson for all of us.

And your right, if we make mistakes in our past there are going to be times where others will somehow remind us that we are not perfect. And you know what? We are never going to be perfect in life, and we are going to make mistakes.

And your entire post is an expression of dislike for yourself. Do you know that? Because if you really cared about yourself you would be like Lynn and dig in your heels and not let others walk on your spirit and your right to have a free spirit.

And the reason why I know this is I have done this too. I have been very disappointed in others that have crossed my path in life. And I am fighting depression too and it is very hard. And that is when you have to make sure that you are seeing a therapist that can help you to learn how to stop bad talking yourself.
That is what you are doing, bad talking life and saying life is bad because you have judged yourself by the reactions of others towards you.

You have to LEARN how to climb out of depression and it takes time and you have to LEARN how to do the work. You haven't learned that yet and you have a lot of company. Life is like a thing that you have that comes in a big box and has a ton of pieces that need to be put together and there is no real instruction manual or a clear picture of what the end result is supposed to look like. Some people are better than others at figuring some of it out but no one has a true manual, so everyone is basically guessing and yet no one really wants to admit it. And many people try to see if others have an idea of how to read the manual or if they even have one, and if they don't see that someone has a manual they quickly move on to someone else.

So don't think it is all your fault. And a lot of people just pretend they have a manual and as soon as you find out they don't have one either they get all pissed off and blame you. Because most people are not willing to accept that they guessed wrong.

A lot of people have depression because they don't realize that no one has a real manual and everyone is pretty much guessing. Depressed people don't know that yet, they have to learn it. But first they have to stop trying to find a manual that never comes with the box of life or thinking they are worthless because they don't have a manual.

The only thing you CAN do is learn how to accept the fact that there really is no manual and take one day at a time and give yourself a break and do your best as that box called life puts itself together. Every single person comes with a unique box and you are no different.

You just have to learn how to take it one day at a time and do your best and learn how to create good thoughts instead of the bad ones you have now.

Open Eyes