The medication is an antidepressant, Brand Name Remeron. It's supposed to make you really tired.

If you feel like you want to hurt yourself, I really think you should go to the hospital. I want you to be safe and not to hurt yourself in any way.

If you do sleep tonight and you feel better tomorrow, then you won't have to go, but if you sleep or don't sleep, either way if you feel like hurting yourself, it's the safest place to be.

Good Luck!