I am an accomplished professional that was diagnosed with complex PTSD a year ago. I go to a T once a week, it was twice but I cant afford it anymore. In fact I'm in debt bc of the bills from all the therapy.
Problem is that my symptoms are getting unbearable, getting worse. I dont want to go to work, it is a struggle everyday. I have "flashbacks" driving to work. Its like a movie playing over and over in my mind. Disconnected scenes.
I so want to get over this but its just not happening. It is effecting my personal relationships bc I dont want to go out and do anything social. I recently broke off my engagement.
I feel so ashamed for being this way. Everyone thinks that I should jsut get over it.
Im seriously considering moving to the other side of the country and changing my name and doing something "artsy." But considering that I have $150K in loans from putting myself through school, that seems pretty dumb. Then I feel dumb for even thinking these things.
i feel like everyone knows and I jsut want to get away from it all-hence the move. Except, my profession requires a license and I am NOT going through that again.