You have many reasons to be angry, A. I'm sorry for your bad experiences. (((((A)))))

There is evidence that our brains are wired differently, and researchers are continuing to discover chemical reactions that are different in our nervous systems. There are many neurological illnesses that cannot be tested for, only diagnosed by symptomatology.

I understand your need to lash out against those who have been callous and insensitive during your treatment. I'm concerned that you will self-destruct by seeing things in such all or nothing terms. Using alcohol and drugs are self-medicating, looking for the same result: a relief from pain.

I encourage you see a psychiatrist when you feel stable so that you can discuss how your treatment can be handled as an outpatient, safely.

((((((((((A))))))))))