I can't sleep again. Yuck. I spoke with my friend today about this contact with the family and she thought it was a good thing that I wrote what I did. We spoke about the use of language and how we need to learn the language to describe the events that we can taste smell hear and see. I am in a place where I am feeling the need for hand-holding on EVERYTHING. It is not like me. However, today as life happens I was again reminded that I am a competent person. I am feeling less then that however. Life goes by so fast and before we know it an entire growing up has happened and where was I? I am having a weird time with my kids being all grown up and me still having parental issues. It is just too weird. Just in a rotten head place tonight.