ong i am being flooded with thoughts of SI today.planning and everything.i dont know why i am so angry and bitter and cared today.i havnt felt the urge to SI in months.WHY NOW? my husband is leaving for a week and i will be on my own for a long time with the ability to SI.i dont know what to do to stop thee feelings or why they are happeniing now.it is like my head is screaming