i woke up today with thoughts of getting stuff done its a beautifull day out ! i thought i can do something in the house like clean it needs it bad & then go weed the yard well a few hrs past & i havent done anything yet im starting to cry & i blaming mtself for being a looser i cant take it no more why cant i get anything done am i lazy why if i continue to cry i defintly wont get anything done whats it gonna take ? what do i tell myself ?im looseing my mind imtrapt i set myself up for failure all the time i look around see a mees & i say its my fault it looks like that ,its my fault its that bad why me why this disease or is it not the bipolar i dont know what to think or how to think if i fall now its gonna be bad i dont wanna please someone let me no what to do or maybe just saport im falling & i cant get out oh no oh no not today i wanna be usefull i dont wanna be a useless person that dosent have the right to be here if i cant give back i feel like im wasting space no rights to walk the earth i do nobody good