My father said something weird to me: "You used to be afraid of tomato plants and washing machines."

As soon as he said that, I had this lightening bolt of fear go through me and I could immediately picture myself hiding amidst the tomato plants at my uncle's house. I know, but cannot remember, that my uncle was sexually abusive. I can't remember what happened relating to tomato plants. Or the washing machine.

OK, truthfully, I can't remember anything personal really. I get told the same things over and over again, even now, 30+ years later and it's like it's brand new to me. Work stuff is different - that I remember for years.

How does one heal when you can't even remember things? I keep a journal so I know what I said in therapy, btw. When I read it from 2 weeks before, it's surprising to me. I wrote that?!

Does anyone else have this problem? What do you do?

Blankly,
Bubba