yeah it was a two hour screening I guess? I didn't know it was a two hour first session and I see the therapist in two weeks, so I am starting out.
I feel mostly better, I feel its a first good step. I talked a lot though, but it was good. part of me felt bad though but ya know I won't let it bother me.... he asked twice why its taken so long and I said Idk the last time, partially I do know why and the reason on why I feel bad is due to my family handled as a secret and its only family business. But they handled it in a bad way, and least I have the strength to attempt to get help now even if its years later....its a start... Of course I stared years ago when realizing what things just bull headed with this... And I'm getting over my pride of therapy... Guess there is another reason

I wanted to talk to my boyfriend but he needed to go to work and had some stuff to do when I got home.... So he promised before he left we will talk more later. He said I have the drive that some don't by going I love him... I already told my boyfriend about stuff, he knows, but I don't want to leave him out just cuz I go to therapy and he least seems willing to listen, he has helped so much already with also you all here, with starting.
in the session we did brush on my family and past issues, I almost started to cry but stopped my self and apologized for it...they said it was ok, I apologized a few times for my family, again it was ok to say. I expressed with out realizing it till later my confusion on some things and thoughts with it...
I am glad psych central is here cuz I am able to tell the website and you lovely peoples! may sound silly but it does help....

Thank you all again,

Its been great help, I hope to have good experience with this.

Sorry for the ramble