Shite!
Feeling quite human at the moment - in fact frighteningly upbeat. Perhaps due to the changes in meds settling down. Really freaky feeling.
Coming back and reading these posts it is almost like a different me.
I now worry about the possibility that i am considered to be self harming - that had not been something that I related to before. In fact, the more I think about it the more I think it might be true... I have had times when all I want to do is have the volume on my music player as high as it will go because i like the pain and ringning in my ears afterwards - in fact it can easily make me sick!

I really do not understand what i am trying to do, but it does make me feel quite calm and isolated afterwards, so perhaps I am trying to remove myself from the rest of the world - that would be warm and comfortable.

Reading some of the posts on this forum has made me think - i have never thought of cutting in that way, but i can see the similarities....