I know your pain. My mother was born in 1941 and married when she was in her early 20's. She never showed my father any affection and it was apparent that she despised men. I have an older sister who has had EVERYTHING given to her. House, cars, money for support. I have been starving on my own all my life. I haven't even had a new bed since I outgrew my childhood bed when I was 13. And it's not like I was a bad kid. I was a geek growing up. had a few friends but never partied or did drugs. Did my best in school while my sister partied, hung out with a bad crowd, was mean and crude etc. Yet she still gets everythingg to this day. My mother even took out an equity loan on her home to bail my sister out of debt. She always got more at christmas than I did. And although my mother never layed a hand on my sister, she would often torture me with scalding hot water, holding a hair dryer against my head until I could smell my flesh cooking. Bend my pinky finger in on it'self causing severe pain and she often jammed nail files deep under my fingernails and would smack me in the head whenever I said, "ouch". I hated myself most of my childhood but now as an adult, looking back, I realise that she just hated males and felt cheated in life because society (back in her day) forced her to marry one. I swear she would have been a lesbian if the era and town would accept it.