It's difficult to diagnose over a computer, I would recommend you go for therapy to explore this issue. From what you described, it is OCD tendencies to feel you have to complete this ritual and have 'power' to control good or bad by fiddling with the switch. Superstition has high correlation in OCD as again, you feel control with completing certain rituals to control outcomes.

CBT and DBT may help with the things you are describing.