Butterflies Are Free & Gr8ce - thanks for your supportive and helpful comments. They really mean a lot. I met with my T today and discussed some really heavy issues. He would like to increase my sessions from 2 to 3 times a week to work on my social anxiety issues. Based on an article I saw here on PC's home page, I attended my first SCA (Sexual Compulsives Anon) meeting last night. The article identified how "giving up (sexuality) in order to avoid dating and intimacy" actually fell into the category of sexual compulsion. I found a beginners meeting for gay men; it was not easy to sit through but I made it and (hopefully) will try it again next week. My issue is sexual anexoria. I discussed it briefly with a member of the new member welcoming committee. He told me that there were other sexual anexoretics there though they are few in number; I was assured that I was welcome and in the right place. The meeting was intimidating - there were nearly 50 people there. Some of the most handsome guys I'd ever seen were there. There were guys of all ages. After the meeting, I did not feel well enough to do fellowship - maybe next week. They say that one should attend 6 meetings in order to determine if the program is right for you. Part of me feels good for trying; the other part feels like it has no idea what it's doing. I may be better off trying to take up new hobbies and meeting people that way as that would, at least, permit me to date some of them. There is a gay pool club that I might look into. I have been hesitant to get involved because I am not a bar person (as an epileptic, I cannot drink alcohol) but it seems like a relaxing activity with down to earth people. It does not excite me much but it would be a start. I will look into it. Thanks again for your support - it means a lot.