I should look into it. You know what the worst part is? I HATE feeling like this, but it's almost like I don't want to change it or make it stop...it's been so long, that I really have gotten used to it, to an extent. I get freaked out about letting people (therapists) in, I don't want them looking at me, and taking notes on everything that's wrong with me... and drugs scare the hell out of me. I just need to do it.