Honestly, it could be more or less than bipolar disorder. I mean, it sounds like bipolar disorder, but you need a true assessment by a psychiatrist. A lot of these symptoms also mirror Borderline Personality Disorder. Some of it sounds like schizo-affective disorder. It's not a matter of "being labeled by a specialist", it's a matter of getting help for yourself. If you had breast cancer you'd go see an endocrinologist, right? Also, please seek help from a psychiatrist or mental health clinic, don't go to your family doctor. Once again, if you had cancer would you go see a dentist? My therapist put these things into perspective for me... I suffer from Bipolar Disorder, severe PTSD and ADHD, so I know your pain. You're never forced into taking medication, but for some mental health issues, it's a good idea to take them for a year or two, until through therapy you learn how to manage your symptoms =] Good luck, let us know how it works out for you!!!