im sorry im here again for ranting. i have broken up real bad with a friend just now....and i feel terrible! i hate my mood swings!! its all my fault! i hate it. i hate this world. i hate evrything. i hate myself. i m so ****ed up that i dont even know what i want and dont want.

i push away people....and i dont really have many friends. those who feel for me,i push them away. how the hell im gonna live like this i dont know that.

im so ****ed up. im a total failure.