Is this a pattern you've been through before or do you think its from the change in meds or a new medication causing these extreme mood shifts? Have you told your doctor about these moods swings and suicidal thoughts? I hope when you have the thoughts, you can think back and remember these feelings will pass - so you won't be in danger. I lost a brother to suicide and I wouldn't want another family to go through that pain. I hope your moods will even out soon.