(trig icon just because I'm not entirely sure whether or not its necessary, better safe than sorry!)

This is my first post here in this section, but for a reason. I always thought my self-destructive behaviour was under my control (I scrape skin, and irritate hang nails/scabs so they bleed). (Also do some other self-destructive stuff, not eating, drinking far too much - haven't learned self control yet)

Today I had a counselling session, and I let it slip that I do it.

Now she (my counsellor) is saying that we're going to have to "talk" and write up some sort of safety plan or something like that.

I don't know what to do, I don't know what to think. This is the first time I've ever told anyone in person, and I haven't got the foggiest idea about whats going to happen.

I can't deal with this. What would happen if I told her I was actually getting random (and strong) thoughts about graduating to cutting for release?? I need SOMETHING to help me cope, regardless of whether or not its the smartest idea.



Okay, rant finished... I just wish I knew whats going to happen now...

Edit: PS. Thanks to both individuals for reading my blog post and leaving a comment. I really am trying...