Be as bold as you'd like to be! I'm not a shy creature.

Currently? Bipolar Type I, OCD, & NPD. I've only ever been evaluated once at one of those small county clinics where you can get therapy/medication on a sliding scale based on financial situation. I never went back & haven't had any insurance or ability to go back to one of those types of places... Though my dx doesn't explicitly say ASPD, I really cannot deny that I have a great deal of symptomatic features, even outside of mania. I'm not exactly sure whether I would constitute as a "malignant narcissist" or antisocial, as the evaluation wasn't that intensive.

BP is a gigantic pain in my *** on a regular basis, OCD isn't really all that bad in recent years, but the NPD/whatever other associated personality features wind up feeling like this deftly detectable rot that sneaks up on me every so often. I'm used to it being there, yet I'm not used to handling it properly. As you may or may not have cared to read on the other thread, I often feel in a place of comfortable self-imposed delusion in that I can function perfectly well as long as I trick myself to do so... Meh.
My motivation is fading & I have no logical outlets anymore. Being dealt a **** situation in life was at least advantageous in that I had outlets that wouldn't make a difference... I'm having a hard time coping actually being under circumstances in which I should & am supposed to be happy. I have no idea how to process it or do something with the pent up energy that wants to sit back & watch everything destroy itself, whilst laughing & drinking a fine merlot.
At a loss.